I cannot bear to click on the article about the football player who is likely paralyzed. I overheard some coworkers talking about it this afternoon, and anytime I hear about someone else who has had a cervical injury it hits really close to home. It also reminds me how much it was a lucky accident of physics that when I broke my neck, I didn't injure my spine at all.
It's 14 days until the anniversary of my accident; it will have been 6 years. This year has been marked by an improvement in the chronic pain, probably due in large part to the fact that I have been taking classes in the Alexander Technique. In the last year I have only had a few spurratic nightmares, but more people than usual have asked about my scars. The scars remain a source of self-conciousness for me. I see the scars on my forehead everytime I look at my face in the mirror. And everytime I glimpse my hand while I'm typing I see the pale, shiny one there catching the light. That one now has a large companion scar, thanks to an Eclectus parrot's beak, which may make it more noticeable to the average person. The scar on my hip no longer itches.
Scars, more than anything, bring back to me the emotions of feeling so broken. I don't know the football player, and never will, but I wish for him that somehow the doctors will be surprised. That he'll be told, over and over again by the doctors and by his family that he was lucky. And that years from now, when he looks at the pale ropes of skin, the remnant of that broken time, that he'll believe them..
It's 14 days until the anniversary of my accident; it will have been 6 years. This year has been marked by an improvement in the chronic pain, probably due in large part to the fact that I have been taking classes in the Alexander Technique. In the last year I have only had a few spurratic nightmares, but more people than usual have asked about my scars. The scars remain a source of self-conciousness for me. I see the scars on my forehead everytime I look at my face in the mirror. And everytime I glimpse my hand while I'm typing I see the pale, shiny one there catching the light. That one now has a large companion scar, thanks to an Eclectus parrot's beak, which may make it more noticeable to the average person. The scar on my hip no longer itches.
Scars, more than anything, bring back to me the emotions of feeling so broken. I don't know the football player, and never will, but I wish for him that somehow the doctors will be surprised. That he'll be told, over and over again by the doctors and by his family that he was lucky. And that years from now, when he looks at the pale ropes of skin, the remnant of that broken time, that he'll believe them..