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I'mSoGreatGiveMeARaise!!
Dec. 11th, 2003 10:20 pmSo, this time of year is eval time. Last week I had to turn in my supervisor eval (for a supervisor I've only reported to for about a month), tomorrow I get to turn in my self-eval, and next week I get to turn in peer evals. Then I get to write an eval for the person who reports to me. Whee!
While I appreciate the fact that they give us the opportunity to justify why we should get a raise in advance of our supervisor's decision, I still hate hate HATE writing my self eval. I don't like having to hold up every little accomplishment of the last year and basically shiny it up to say "I'm efficient! I'm productive! I'm professional! Gosh darnit, people like me!" It all feels like BS, but even more to the point what I really want is for them to see my accomplishments, without me pointing them out. But, there's no one else who will champion them, because they all have to champion their own.
It feels like more pressure than usual this year for two reasons. 1) Our supervisor really hasn't had a lot of time to see our strengths and weaknesses so she's going to have to depend more on peer reviews for our evals and 2) I really want to get promoted by early next year. I get paranoid about what my coworkers will say about me. I know most of the people there like and respect me. I know some of them are even the people who will be doing my peer evals, but I also know that one person who I sometimes have trouble working with will be doing a peer eval. On the flip side, I'm also doing an eval for this person, so suddenly she's being super nice to me. Hmm..
While I appreciate the fact that they give us the opportunity to justify why we should get a raise in advance of our supervisor's decision, I still hate hate HATE writing my self eval. I don't like having to hold up every little accomplishment of the last year and basically shiny it up to say "I'm efficient! I'm productive! I'm professional! Gosh darnit, people like me!" It all feels like BS, but even more to the point what I really want is for them to see my accomplishments, without me pointing them out. But, there's no one else who will champion them, because they all have to champion their own.
It feels like more pressure than usual this year for two reasons. 1) Our supervisor really hasn't had a lot of time to see our strengths and weaknesses so she's going to have to depend more on peer reviews for our evals and 2) I really want to get promoted by early next year. I get paranoid about what my coworkers will say about me. I know most of the people there like and respect me. I know some of them are even the people who will be doing my peer evals, but I also know that one person who I sometimes have trouble working with will be doing a peer eval. On the flip side, I'm also doing an eval for this person, so suddenly she's being super nice to me. Hmm..
